Perhaps it is the upcoming Pisces moon that is calling to me like a siren song, from her Indigo depths…. but my heart, head, and intuition have been entrenched in the concept of Sanctuary lately. I am overcome with the need to travel within.
What is Sanctuary?
If you had asked me this question as a girl, I would have responded with some version of the church scene in Disney’s “The Hunchback of Notre Dame”. Most likely singing it, mind you, and as dramatically as possible. As an adolescent, I thought I knew what a Sanctuary was supposed to be, but had no idea what one felt like.
It would be MANY MANY years before I even had the slightest notion that I could find Sanctuary, let alone honor it.
While tumbling around in my 20’s, (they were NOT graceful, much to my dismay) I looked for Sanctuary, (which at the time was in fact validation of my worthy ness in life) in the outside world… in excitement, in achievement, and most especially in other people. I had to learn over and over and OVER, that we can never truly find solace or happiness until we are at peace within ourselves.
A few years ago at the beginning of my spiritual and sober journey, I came across the Celtic word for Sanctuary:
At the time, it felt like that word was born just for me… it was the protection and love I needed, and most importantly, that the power could come from inside MYSELF. It seemed so simple, and yet it has been and continues to be one of the hardest lessons I have learned.
As the years have gone on, I have studied and done my fair share of soul searching- and I can tell you beyond a shadow of a doubt, that the center of my Sanctuary is my heart space.
I have a beautiful altar in my bedroom that is Home to my most Sacred possessions, and is also where I go to light candles of intention and pray. But it is not my Sanctuary.
Close your eyes for a moment…. lay your hands over your heart and picture it inside you….what do you see? What do you feel?
There is power there, and a weaving of roots that go back thousands of years to our Ancestors. When I close my eyes and place my hands on my heart, I see a pink rose nestled in my chest, with its petals unfurled, but not yet completely open. In the center of that Rose lies a large shining Quartz crystal point that sparkles with light. Golden rays like veins and roots travel from this crystal, throughout my body, down into the Earth, and out through my Crown Chakra into the sky.
I carry my Sanctuary with me, because my Soul is my Sanctuary.
In today’s world, it is so important to be able to go within, and find connection and comfort. We have all been programmed to search for that elusive “missing something” that will finally make us feel whole once it is within our grasp.
It already is. It is right inside me, and right inside you. Honor your body, your heart, your mind, and your soul. YOU are your Sanctuary. You were born with it.
Step inward, breathe… and feel the light within you flicker and ignite.
I needed to write this tonight as a reminder to myself to keep traveling deeper… if you are reading this, I hope that it may be a sign for you as well.